no way..my whole blog got deleted...

Eurabia: "possibly the most influential western geopolitical theory since the attacks of 9/11" it's basically what led a man to detonate a bomb in Oslo and then go on a rampage after teenagers on a deserted island in 2011 (already two years eh?)

it's considered a conspiracy theory but..it did lead to the death of many many people so I'd say it would be a good thing to be aware of it. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eurabia

When a relationship will gear into something else, you cant stay so close to someone for ever. and i know that. but i dread the day that a friendship goes into a "lower" gear. i know that it's meant to be, and its going to be okay. but...memories do weird thing. i'm just dreading it coz it'll be change. from something comfy to something not so comfy at the beginning (coz it'll get better with time right?) everyone dreads change. that's just humans.

would it be better to not talk at all? rather than see yourself thinking about things to say when before you could literally say shit, apologize even though it wasnt needed and straight away talk about something else? when i think about it...it feels like it would be.

..that there's no point in running away.

or that if i do need to run away, i should run away somewhere useful, where i'd learn something,

..that if i decide to look into whats going on beyond this Island, i'll come across a lot of sad, depressing stuff. but the happy, uplifting stuff will be so much more happy and uplifting because it's real, it happened, it had consequences, it left marks.

ever been to Dubai? how did you find it?

hoping to do Dubai? why?

heres an article entitled "the dark side of Dubai" (yes, i did say it with that funny, scary voice)

http://www.independent.co.uk/voices/commentators/johann-hari/the-dark-si...

I'll try and post some snipets for those out there too lazy to read the whole thing.

i was watching this programme about a plane crash in Japan. and the Americans there offered help, and im surprised,why is there american military in a country that has been destroyed by America? was this part of some humiliation programme? the American offered help for the rescue mission of that plane and the Japanese refused. of course they would, its a horrible situation to be put in. of course the best solution would have been to accept thehelp if they had better equipment (why DOES anamerican military base have better equipment then the WHOLE country) and that would have led to many lives being saved..but this is like accepting help from someone who broke your arm and leg.

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i'll just list here some of the points he made, do have a listen though, he qualifies and explains his points concisely but clearly and its just worth it.

I am not known to understand those very well. actually im not even sure if that statement is correct. i usually look into things too much, or too little, i feel things strongly (i think.. i thought..i did...) but i also like to understand everything, to narrow things down to their basics and solve things like that. I like to think of why and how does it work.

then there's feelings, emotions. Those invisible threads that connect us. and they BAFFLE me. something invisible can cause SUCH ... ~THINGS! *waves around at the world*

It really is wouldnt you agree? sometimes its just so difficult..that phrase comes to mind... "rest in peace" sometimes, you just want to "rest in peace". i've refrain from using that phrase and its acronym out loud. might freak out a lot of people

when i was younger, i had this imagery in my head, black and white. stickpeople. most of them on the bottom right corner, in the middle, diagonally [top right to bottom left] is sometthing like a ravine, just a thick raggedy line really, and on the other side there's some people, just a few, far and wide apart.

sometimes, a piece of baguette, a thick-ish layer of butter and a sweet strawberry jam spread is all you need for breakfast.

(and warm banana milk)

i like blueberry jam the best, then all homemade jams (i once had rhubarb and orange - yum!), then Asda's mix fruit jam. strawberry is always the safe bet..can get boring though.

orange marmalade is so....bleurgyurgy! its so grown up.

have you ever thought that the scariest thing is yourself? have you ever been scared of yourself?

i get scared of myself sometimes, when i know something is bad for me but i still want to do it and i have to keep myself busy and tell myself why i shouldnt do it over and over again.

its like a battle of wills. inside of you. a tug-of-war. inside of you.

freaky.