once upon a time there was a me, and there was a you. and everything was fine. then there was a You. and after a while everything was fine. then there was a chat. and another You and things got messy. then there was a pretty blue writing, ever so inviting, and then there was a third You. and chaos ensued.
i have this memory, i dont know if its accurate or just glossed over to make it look cool in my head and worthy of retelling in a revival blog. (which i totally ruined now)
so anyway, this memory is of my 16-ish years old self. pondering the difference between lonely and alone. having learnt about it the "life" way.
since then ive been careful of my usage of those two words and also highly aware of their difference and how they each feel in everyday living.
Ive always enjoyed having some alone time. just doing nothing or doing something that needs doing, that has clear goals and that has a clear end point but by myelf. (like hanging the clothes out to dry, or shopping with a shopping list..stuff like that)
I dont want to tidy my room!
there's hardly anything there thats mine
its a shared room you see, so why should i be the one stuck in there?
plus a hurricane of the-three-girls-under-the-age-ten has struck.
FOUR NIGHTS AND THREE DAYS STRAIGHT
so why should i tidy my room
where hardly any of the mess is mine?
plus there are better things to do
i've got to change the world, i've got to save it.
i cnt be stuck in my room,
when the world is going ballistic.
its not fair its not fair!
the duvet's there because the bed was most struck by the hurricane
i dont know why the jewellery's on the floor!
i was asleep the whole time!
the revival's standard size is too big, please reduce it. because i have to zoom out to 50% to get a decent view of the site, and then everything else on hte world wide web ends up the above size.
LOST GENERATION
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quick practical straight forward advice that one can implement right there adn then.
why do you act like it's not your problem
i know you're busy, i know you've got a life
but why do you turn a blind eye on this
it is your problem, it is my problem
it is our problem.
i might have a bit more free time,
i might be lazying about
but i can see the consequences looming on the horizon
i might be a bit more sensitive
and again have too much spare time
to feel the pain of those beyond our borderlines.
i do not ask you to feel it,
i just want you to know
i see the consequences
like angry black clouds
they're rolling in, slowly but surely.
the thunder and the lighting,
slowly synchronizing
i ask you for your help
i must have been 7,8 or 9. at Taraweeh, witr time and the imaam is making duahs in qunut, long long duahs, the algerian/morrocan/tunisian and other Arabic-understanding ladies around me are crying, sobbing, the imaam's voice is breaking as well. me and my friends arent messing about anymore, just for that moment.
the imaam is making a long lon duah in arabic that we can hardly understand, and then there's a happy part, where he mentions all those names of country but with an arabic tweak. always fun, plus its in a certain order so we can repeat. I remember repeating those arabized country names when messing about as a kid when asked to "make duah".
thinking abt setting a coupla reading groups. each reading a diff book. it'd be via skype
books ive considered are when the moon split and "journey to Allah" by ibn al qayyim and "explanation of 3 fundamental principles"
its mainly for people who are totally free during ramadan and want to use those reading groups to add structure to their day.
i was thinking early afternoon for them. on different days of the week. anyway, pm me if you're interested with available days of week and times.
