I HATE THIS I HATE THIS I HATE ThIS I HATE THIS MY WHOLE BLOG GOT DELETED BECAUSE OF MY OVERSENSITIVE MOUSEPAD.

so, i was sorting out toys and emptied a toybox and thought it needed a wash. i was weighing whether i should do it or get someone else to do it or just stuff the toys in..then i decided to be a good human and not only opt for the washing but do it myself.

im washign the toybox in the bathtub, not being very care. so its making a bit of noise, banging the sides of teh bathrub and the water is going a bit everywhere.

i was suppose to write a blog about something that happened today, and i was about to write it straight after it happened but qadarAllah, itss been about 3 hours since then. had time to think abt things. still, the need to write a blog is there.

i have no idea if writing blogs about this is a good idea... this being epilepsy... wont it be just doom and gloom, wont that be NOT good for me?

you dont have to answer that question now, just have a look at my entries, and if you ever think i need to stop doing this, please let me know. because i just dont know.

i must have been 7,8 or 9. at Taraweeh, witr time and the imaam is making duahs in qunut, long long duahs, the algerian/morrocan/tunisian and other Arabic-understanding ladies around me are crying, sobbing, the imaam's voice is breaking as well. me and my friends arent messing about anymore, just for that moment.

the imaam is making a long lon duah in arabic that we can hardly understand, and then there's a happy part, where he mentions all those names of country but with an arabic tweak. always fun, plus its in a certain order so we can repeat. I remember repeating those arabized country names when messing about as a kid when asked to "make duah".

Since the Military coup in Egypt, I have been firmly in support of Morsi and against the coup that took place. This is especialy so on twitter.

However that does not mean I am immune to the mistakes made by Morsi.

If you look online at the opponents of Morsi and the MuslimBrotherhood, there is a level of hate and vitriol that is startling. While all of this may not be the fault of Morsi and the Muslim Brotherhood, some of it is.

So here are some of the mistakes by Morsi.

1. Getting lost in useless and stupid debate.

After the winning the parliamentary elections before Moris was elected to president, the parliament had a lot to deal with - a country mismanaged for 60 years, an economy in freefall.

http://halalgoogling.com/

From an email which I thought I'd share on here; A few ways in which you can take advantage of this month, especially the last 10 days;

1) Reserve a Private Meeting with Allah - Set a time before or after suhoor to be alone with Allah (swt).  Use this time to connect to Him by praying, making du`a’, or reading Qur’an. There is no other time like it. The Prophet ﷺ said: “When the last one-third of the night remains, our Lord, the Glorious One, descends towards the lower heaven and proclaims: ‘Is there anyone supplicating to Me, so that I grant his supplication? Is there anyone begging of Me for anything so that I grant him his wish? Is there anyone who seeks My forgiveness, so that I forgive him?’” [Bukhari and Muslim].

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Ramadan is the perfect time for self reflection - Satan is locked up and we know our thoughts,speech and behaviour are all from ourselves. This should teach us to take responsibility of our actions - we can no longer blame the evil-ness of Satan but have to accept it is the evil (too strong?) within us.

Recently I've been trying to be more healthy but previously there's been two times in the year when I have *really* thought about the fact that my body has a right over me; exam period and Ramadan. During exams because I believe any sin I commit and anything wrong I do will affect my memory, my performance and my results. Therefore I have to do the right thing by my body as well as avoiding other wrong things. If only I lived like this every day of my life...I'm trying inshaAllah.

When Lesley Hazleton was writing a biography of Muhammad, she was struck by something: The night he received the revelation of the Koran, according to early accounts, his first reaction was doubt, awe, even fear. And yet this experience became the bedrock of his belief. Hazleton calls for a new appreciation of doubt and questioning as the foundation of faith -- and an end to fundamentalism of all kinds.

Watch the following video:

http://www.ted.com/talks/lesley_hazleton_the_doubt_essential_to_faith.html