Just reading:

http://dailyreminders.org/ten-thoughts-to-ponder/

My favourite one so far is the second point: Not bearing grudges, makes you healthy. I think that is true.

As far as I see it, holding grudges is a black emotion. A black emotion needs to be rid of along with things like jealousy. It's all about achieving to be a better person with being aware of God in your surroundings.

And for the worriers: and chase away your worries by remembering the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon you.

For those who are too lazy (this is one of my black emotion/characteristics) to click on the link:

“The One Who hasn’t slept and doesn’t sleep sees us, even if people don’t see us,” she said. “Do you not fear He Who neither sleeps nor is heedless of anything that happens?”

yeah...i guess im using my blog for personal matters, but isnt that what it is for?
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Me: "WE'RE MOVING ON AND WE CAN'T STOP IT
as much as i would love to stop time and live these days again and again. i can't
college changes you and we will meet new people and change our own personalities, IT'S NATURAL" <--this is a quote from HER previous email that i copy pasted into mine

"we're moving on" <-- need i comment on this?
you'd love to stop these days. that means you dont expect any of "these days" to happen again.
"we will meet new people" that means you think we're going to forget the old?
"change our personalities" that means we wont be compatible anymore?

If I was to die right now
Boy would I be screwed.

">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-RNPn6ck7q8&playnext_from=TL&videos=mE9Xc...

again, me and my weird sense of thinking...

whats the point of age?
Isnt just another social control agent?
to tell us what to do and what to not do at different time in our life? things that are/are not acceptable in society?

(and birthday parties. big money makers for shops.)

whats the point in keeping track of your age?

Islam is a religion based on revelation that deems the human being nothing less than the vicegerent of God. The work of the world never ends, and one’s obligations are greater than the time allotted to fulfil them. For this reason, Muslim jurists hesitated to condone anything that wasted one’s time without benefit, other than acts that the Prophet (Sallallahu alayhi wasalam) had clearly said are useful: playing with one’s spouse, spending time with one’s children and family, and engaging in sports that displayed martial valour and character, such as horsemanship, archery, swimming, and swordplay.

My friends wants to buy me something, (dunno why as they do for me as much as i do for them) but that doesnt matter...

would it be alright to say something around (NOT the words im actually going to use) "the greatest thing you guys could give me would be To try and become more religious."

i know it sounds like i'm full of myself. the thing is, i would DEFINITELY accept a little present from my friends as i know that i wouldnt want someone to refuse a present i give them, but they want to buy something in the hundreds of pounds!!!

I cant accept that! when i was talking about the thing i wanted, it was just whim, i didnt think they'd take it seriously!