God can you hear me calling?
I need you here tonight.
Im all alone and shaking,
Coz nothing seems to go right,
Just a few more hours
and it will be Fajhr time soon
I think i might wait up
Oh, God what can I do
What can I do?

You say theres only one path
That your house is my home too
But my heart is always somewhere else
And thats why you've left me alone.

Just a few more hours
And it'll be Fajhr time soon
God, can you hear me callin'
Oh God what can i do
What can I do?

God, I know Ive done wrong,
And Im not your favourite tonight,
But I hope you'll forgive me some day,
Even if you take my life away...

i know you're not here yet but you'll hear this,
death is defnite so don't don't fear it,
When i'm gone don't do as i did, do as i say,
Your life is a test so do it your own way,
I wasn't perfect, never think that i was,
Every move that i made, i did it beacause,
well i don't know with hindsight you might tell me,
or someday someone out there might realise and bell me,
But i don't know yet so say the storys begun,
May not be as important as the daily rise of the sun,
But what i read on it's pages i think that its done,
cus truth is well, all this writing was it written for fun?
Logic don't apply, so really why they telling me?
I'm a human not an object so you won't be selling me,
Materialisms one disease disguised as another,

Assalamalikom,

please, I need help...
I'm drowning, and no body can see that...
I don't trust any body around me... they all eat humans flesh (backbite)...I live in a small community...
If you know a female Da'eyah.. a trustful female Da-eyah that can help me... please ... I need help..

I know.. posting a blog is a stupid idea.. but i didn't sleep all night.. i'm desperate...

please,..I need help..

yeah i do.
don't you just?

Alternative Anthem

Put the kettle on
Put the kettle on
It is the British answer
to Armageddon.

Never mind taxes rise
Never mind trains are late
One thing you can be sure of
and that’s the kettle, mate.

It’s not whether you lose
It’s not whether you win
It’s whether or not
you’ve plugged the kettle in.

May the kettle ever hiss
May the kettle ever steam
It is the engine
that drives our nation’s dream.

Long live the kettle
that rules over us
May it be limescale free
and may it never rust.

Sing it on the beaches
Sing it from the housetops
The sun may set on empire
but the kettle never stops.

John Agard

(hopefully i dont get accused of nationalism)

When we are leaving this world for the next one, it shall be like a trip to another country...

Where details of that country won't be found in glamorous travel brochures,

but in the Holy Qura'an and the Hadiths.

Where our plane won't be Indian Air Lines, British Airways, Gulf Air or Emirates, but ‘Air Janazah’.

Where our luggage won't be the allowed 30 Kgs, but our deeds no matter how heavy they weigh..

You don't pay for excess luggage. They are carried free of charge, with your Creator's compliment.

Where our dress won't be a Pierre Cardin suit or the like but the white cotton shroud.

Where our perfume won't be Channel, Paco Rabane, but the camphor and attar.

Where our passports won't be Indian, British, French or American but ‘Al Islam’.

Just reading:

http://dailyreminders.org/ten-thoughts-to-ponder/

My favourite one so far is the second point: Not bearing grudges, makes you healthy. I think that is true.

As far as I see it, holding grudges is a black emotion. A black emotion needs to be rid of along with things like jealousy. It's all about achieving to be a better person with being aware of God in your surroundings.

And for the worriers: and chase away your worries by remembering the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon you.

For those who are too lazy (this is one of my black emotion/characteristics) to click on the link:

“The One Who hasn’t slept and doesn’t sleep sees us, even if people don’t see us,” she said. “Do you not fear He Who neither sleeps nor is heedless of anything that happens?”

yeah...i guess im using my blog for personal matters, but isnt that what it is for?
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Me: "WE'RE MOVING ON AND WE CAN'T STOP IT
as much as i would love to stop time and live these days again and again. i can't
college changes you and we will meet new people and change our own personalities, IT'S NATURAL" <--this is a quote from HER previous email that i copy pasted into mine

"we're moving on" <-- need i comment on this?
you'd love to stop these days. that means you dont expect any of "these days" to happen again.
"we will meet new people" that means you think we're going to forget the old?
"change our personalities" that means we wont be compatible anymore?

If I was to die right now
Boy would I be screwed.