I'm losing myself
Its quite scary to be honest...
losing yourself...one weird expression wouldnt you agree? i mean, you right there! flesh, bones, brains, how can you "loose yourself"?
but anywhow..im not going to add ANOTHER unanswerable question to my list...
this is the way i feel. I just dont know what i stand for, where i stand, why,
I've said a few times here that "i like the me now" well actually...i cant remember what is it about me i like =/ i havent started hating myself, but it feels like if i dont remember whats so good about me soom then i will [start hating myself]
oh...one scary thought...right here... [up there]
im thinking its the whole NEW thing. Everything is NEW, new friends, new school, new routine. I'm guetting lost in it all! (this sounds so silly...)
It all feels so good and great, it CANT last!!
Friends that i share a lot in common, friends that i can talk religion with, School that i dont hate, where im an equal, where im starting from where everyone start and at the same time. new routine, new homework load, new responsibilities...
And i know its not tiredness...hamdoulillah. i've been sleeping good-ish last few nights... and its not "hormones" either...
Then parents having a go at me... I KNOW they are humans! but...
could it be Winter Blues? NO!! that is SO lame... now you guys are gona think "oh she heard about winter blues so she thinks she's got it" but i dont! im just trying to explain those feelings!!
there's something wrong..i can feel it, [gut feeling] but i cant put my finger on it...
OHH I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO THE OLD ME! THE OLD ME IS SCARY!!!!!!!!!
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losing* yourself?
It's just a feeling it'l pass. No need to be negative.
You don't need to figure out whats good about you, if you feel happy, then its all good. If there was something wrong then yes u should figure out what it is and try and sort it out if possible
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It'll pass trust the littlest revivaler here.
cus i'm still here.
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[quote=Exception]It'll pass trust the littlest revivaler here.
cus i'm still here.[/quote]
🙂
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The feeling of not being comfortable in your own skin?
You grow out of it with time... thru life experiences you begin to know where your strengths lie and ultimately just how awesome you are 🙂
Now cheer up your kinda depressing.
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[quote=Ocean]I was expecting something like this from you.
It's quite normal to feel like that you know. It maintains a good balance in emotions! Someone needs a hot water bottle and box of tissues![/quote]
u talkin to me or lills?
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[quote=Ocean][quote=Sephy][quote=Ocean]I was expecting something like this from you.
It's quite normal to feel like that you know. It maintains a good balance in emotions! Someone needs a hot water bottle and box of tissues![/quote]
u talkin to me or lills?[/quote]
Do you want me to speak to you too?[/quote]
sooooo your saying u were talkng to lills, right. Gotchya 😉
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[quote=Ocean]I was expecting something like this from you.
It's quite normal to feel like that you know. It maintains a good balance in emotions! Someone needs a hot water bottle and box of tissues![/quote]
im too hyper for you?? 😛
no worries, the mask slipped but its back on! 😃
Anyways...the insecurity lies in the fact that i cannot believe this will last..it just feels TOO great...
im bound to trip and fall..and the older you get the more it hurts...
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[quote=Lilly][quote=Ocean]I was expecting something like this from you.
It's quite normal to feel like that you know. It maintains a good balance in emotions! Someone needs a hot water bottle and box of tissues![/quote]
im too hyper for you?? 😛
no worries, the mask slipped but its back on! 😃
Anyways...the insecurity lies in the fact that i cannot believe this will last..it just feels TOO great...
im bound to trip and fall..and the older you get the more it hurts...[/quote]
Stop over thinking!!! And just enjoy the ride!
Ill be happy to give you a hug if you need it 😃
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[quote=Ocean][quote=Lilly][quote=Ocean]I was expecting something like this from you.
It's quite normal to feel like that you know. It maintains a good balance in emotions! Someone needs a hot water bottle and box of tissues![/quote]
im too hyper for you?? 😛
no worries, the mask slipped but its back on! 😃
Anyways...the insecurity lies in the fact that i cannot believe this will last..it just feels TOO great...
im bound to trip and fall..and the older you get the more it hurts...[/quote]
too hyper? LOL
Good that you're feeling yourself again... How does it feel to be back?
The older you get you get more and more immune to the pain from trippin and fallin... what are you on about? Speak in English woman![/quote]
I think she means you toughen up as you get older.
Which is true.
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you might toughen up...but as you get older, when you have a physical fall, it actually hurts a heck of a lot more than if you were 7...
im thinking this applies to emotional pain too...
@Letters: CYbER HUGS!
(urgh milk turning cold in microwave...OH GOD!!! PITTA TURNING STONE IN TOASTER!!)
Stop thinking and start enjoying.
Just because you know what negative emotion can be like and how powerful it is it does not mean it has to necessarily return (though having that as a fear is logical).