my birth mark is islam yet i am not a muslim at heart because i sin everyday of my life. I watch tv, listen to music, dress inappropiatly (top and jeans) and further more. i prey to allah subhanallah wa taalah to shower with imaan and guidence which will allow me to take the right path. However my faith always dislocates itself and i end up in the same position i started out;sinning constantly. i try my hadrest not to lose hope, believing that inshallah one day will come, when allah (swt) will give me hidayat and i will have the opportunity to redeem myself and walk the path of redemtion which will prepare me for the day of resurrection.