My life story... Ish
Well i did warn you...
Alright, it's not actually my life story, more like a vent my feelings, get your advice kinda thing...
If , at any point, you get too bored to carry on- by all means leave
This is my time to whinge, not yours XD
Well basically, my big problem right now, that seems to be eating up my whole life is this.
The fact that i feel i have two identities
The way i feel that i'm only HALF a Muslim
and i know that probably makes no sense
but you see, the thing is right- that i feel like there are two separate Mes- two halves of the same person- if that makes sense...
I don't know if you read my other blogs about Eid and Hugging, but i guess in a way it's kinda similar...
I mean, there's the Ash half of me
the extrovert part of me with the Black and purple hair
Designer clothes, permanent smile and brimming with confidence
Then there's the part of me that only seems to exist internally, the part of me that at night regrets things i did, and feels bad about being ashamed and i don't know how many times i've promised myself that right, TOMORROW- i'll start, even if it's only baby steps
but then i never do and my reasoning that works with myself when i'm "out" doesn't work
The clutching-at-straws reasons
like I'm only young, i'll still have time
it's not my fault, it's my parents for bringing me up undisciplined
those reasons seem pathetic NOW but not at the time
In fact at the time, the fact that i'm "a muslim" doesn't even Occur to me
I don't know tbh, if i even deserve the title
i mean, isn't a Muslim someone who does all the things it's compulsory for a muslim TO DO ?
I believe in God, yes but it's not ENOUGH is it
It's strange, but i've never even CONSIDERED the fact that if i AM a Muslim, i'm a bad one- i guess because i've always been around people that are worse i just thought i was borderline OK but the fact that other people are BAD doesn't mean I'm Good.
Does that make sense?
Congratulations if you made it this far
you have my undying love 
But i have a little more to say
*deep breath*
So yeahh well basically i mean i wish i could just take that big leap and make a first move
but i can't even CONSIDER just walking into college with a hijab on because to me it sounds absurd but i think, for me to ever advance spiritually, i'd have to do that
because it would mean that i wasn't ashamed
I mean i'm NOT ashamed, but it's easy to say that NOW
And if someone asked me i'd answer but if i think of it like
If someone approached me and asked me about myself, i wouldn't.... i DON'T mention that i'm a Muslim
i guess it's because of the way people stereotype Muslims and i wouldn't want them to prejudge me...partly, i suppose
i mean, i wouldn't deny it if i was asked
but i wouldn't willingly say it without being prompted
I'm sorry if this blog makes you think badly of me
but it's something i feel i have to say
I don't believe for a second you've read this all from start to finish, but thank you anyway XD
Any thoughts/comments/opinions/advice?
Because that would be great if you're offering
Please and thank you
Comments
Erm.
I think i'll keep the one i have XD
Probably still adapting to where i'm currently living tbh
they just might not be used to the way i talk
i think It'd be even worse if all of a sudden i started talking with a scottish accent
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
Salaam
I can not stress enough the importsnce of starting small. Absolutely, you should do the main things first e.g. Prayers. But start small! The reason is, if you bite of more than you can chew, you're going to choke and not only does this bring youu back to where you were before, you also feel bad about yourself.
By starting with something so small that you barely realise you're doing it (praying 1 prayer or not loosing your temper or something that you know you can do in a small way) you can carry on doing it for a few days. If you can do it for a few days, you can make a habit out of it, and if you can make a habit out of it, it's becomes difficult for you to stop doing it.
This is what You means when he said:
The Holy Prophet SAW said "The deed most beloved to Allah, is the small deed done consistantly."
When I said you have to draw the line somewhere, I meant that you, personally, have to decide where you're going to draw the line. Because you know yourself best and you know better than anyone else what you can or can't do. But keep it small.
If you do want to start with prayetr and you think "I won't be able to keep this up everyday." Then to begin with, do one prayer once every three days, or if you can't do that, once every four days. It's better than no prayers, right? Rememeber start small because from tiny acorns, mighty oak trees grow!
He's 100% right. If you're relaxed and comfortable with yourself in your efforts then it shouldn't change the positive aspects of your personality.
Can't argue with that.
Gentleness and kindness were never a part of anything except that it made it beautiful, and harshness was never a part of anything except that it made it ugly.
Through cheating, stealing, and lying, one may get required results but finally one becomes
Everything Wednesday said was good and true, except this bit:
If the road is shaped like this:
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Then square wheels would be perfect.
(How's THAT for a metaphor? I got it from 'How 2')
Don't just do something! Stand there.
you agree with EVERYTHING she wrote besides the bike thing?
Even "I sense courage, adaptability, brightness, wit, sense of responsibility and manners in you ... well done! " ?
Hah.
So you admit i'm not a monster!
Rawr....ty the American philosopher was a very intelligent man
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
Peace to you too
Thanks for your help BTW, probably means more than you think
Yeah, i've been trying to develop Better/more (?) Muslim qualities, i mean i've always had manners
and been polite, the usual stuff- because of my parents
but i've also always been impatient and easily agitated, so recently i've been trying to change that
and since i've become aware of it- i've realised just how Bad it is
Sometimes i forget, but Insh'allah, over time, if i push myself, patience will come naturally
Tbh. Salah is very high on my list of priorities
i'd love to be able to say i'm the best Muslim i can be
Yes i do the basic stuff that people just EXPECT a Muslim to do
Yes, as a matter of fact, i Do pray five times a day
It's just that, the very few times i've tried that
i.e the first couple of days of Ramadan, it doesn't go on for long
I'll read maybe four/five on the first day- and the ramadan prayers
then maybe the last prayers and the Ramadan prayers
and the next day i won't bother at all =/
like i tell myself later, later and then that it's "too late now"
yet, had i been out- or on the computer, i could gladly have stayed awake till the early hours of the morning without a thought
Also,between college and socialising, i spend more time away from home than AT home (excluding sleeping time XD)
I guess it would be easier if More people at home prayed but i guess that's no excuse
I guess you're right
but i don't have many positive aspects
i think most of all what i want to do is start completely afresh. like a Whole new person
but that's not possible is it
as it goes, you're Stuck with who you are, aren't you?
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
Booboo's road is made to fit the specification of your wheels
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
That's a chicken and egg conundrum.
Don't just do something! Stand there.
I doubt it. Not rodes in a 'modern' sense, with tarmac etc.
On a similar note: Tinned food was invented 50 years before the first tin opener!
Don't just do something! Stand there.
Wow ive been ignoring this for a long time because it said warning dont open, nice little toppic.
Those who danced were thought to be quite insane, by those who couldn't hear the music...
Thank you
So what made you change your mind then?
Sheer boredom?
What did you think would happen?
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
I think you mean Roads*
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
Possibly.
Don't just do something! Stand there.
Or rodents.
Which just wouldn't make sense.
Not that you not making sense is anything new
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
yep i just saw yaqubs name on recent post i thought it must be good lol!
Those who danced were thought to be quite insane, by those who couldn't hear the music...
Dude, although you have a talent for being pedantic, that doesn't mean your always right. Roads came first, tarmac is merely a refinement of a pre-existing product. I dare you to say the same thing about bicycle wheels.
Gentleness and kindness were never a part of anything except that it made it beautiful, and harshness was never a part of anything except that it made it ugly.
Through cheating, stealing, and lying, one may get required results but finally one becomes
Er... my bike goes offroad. If that isn't proof that I'm always right, then I'm not sure WHAT is.
Did you know that the motorway was invented 3000 years before the first automobile (but nobody bothered building one because they thought it would be a waste of time and didn't like Little Chef).
Don't just do something! Stand there.
truthli..your not alone.im 17 and think that i personaly cannot cal myself a muslim.i mean how can i?i dont pray or follow any of the pillars yet i believe in Allah and the Quran.there is the part of me that would love to study islamic laws and history even go to a madrasah..and then theres the other side,westernised you might say, the trendy clothes and different hairstyles.truthli i think all us young people need to find identity and commit to religion when we believe we can because i know that i have not got the commitment in my self.
That is how you can.
Please do not belittle what you do have over what you want to have.
"For too long, we have been a passively tolerant society, saying to our citizens 'as long as you obey the law, we will leave you alone'" - David Cameron, UK Prime Minister. 13 May 2015.
How did I miss that? Belief in Allah (swt) and the the Prophet Muhammad
(which implicates the Qur'an) IS the first pillar. So you follow on already, Alhamdulillah (the most important one, too).
Don't just do something! Stand there.
"Off-road" you say? Wow, it seems that your referance to the bike is based on the concept of 'roads'. That is to say, if you are citing your bike as an example of pre-road bicycles then the fact that you call it off-road assumes that there is a road away from which the bike operates. Either that's some sort of koan, or you're wrong. Now if you'd called it a 'dirt bike'...
Regarding the first motorway being built 3000 years ago, what's your source?
Gentleness and kindness were never a part of anything except that it made it beautiful, and harshness was never a part of anything except that it made it ugly.
Through cheating, stealing, and lying, one may get required results but finally one becomes
They didn't build it, they just invented it. There is no source. But there is no proof that is WASN'T invented, either...
Don't just do something! Stand there.
No, I said it goes off-road, because our current frame-of-reference is that bikes are road-based mammals.
When it was invented I think it was just called a 'bicycle', so I don't think the existance (or non-existance) of roads was relevant.
Isn't trying to out-pedant each other about something completely irrelevant fun?
Don't just do something! Stand there.
Especially on some-elses thread, and especially when I'm supposed to working on my final year project!
Gentleness and kindness were never a part of anything except that it made it beautiful, and harshness was never a part of anything except that it made it ugly.
Through cheating, stealing, and lying, one may get required results but finally one becomes
At least the title 'Don't Open This Blog' is relevant now!
Don't just do something! Stand there.
Before I comment, I just want to say that please don't hijack this blog. It's so unhelpful.
Anyway, just like everyone else has said, you already believe in the First Pillar, now you just have to fulfil the other four.
There is nothing wrong with being "western", mate, so long as it doesn't contradict Islam (I mean the real Islam, not backwards culture). It's OK to wear jeans, dress trendy and eat fish and chips. But we should be proud of being British Muslims, and we should TRY to live our lives with accorance to Islam.
“Before death takes away what you are given, give away whatever there is to give.”
Mawlana Jalal ud Din Rumi
100% what he said!
The ulema would wear the clothing and dress styles and eat the food of the country they were living in. We often fail to appreciate the vast world that Islam reached to in its classical period. Turkish Muslims had different styles to Spanish Muslims who had different style to Morrocoan Muslims etc and it's all Rahmah! This difference between cultures is brilliant! And it's to be embrace and integrated into. For sure, leave the bad bits, but take a hold of virtue with both hands where you find it.
The importance of integrating into a geographical culture can be understood from the fact that a learned person cannot be a Qadi (judge) in an area unless he understands the culture of the people there. Often, the shari'ah has a ruling with certain criteria and the criteria is judged by the culture. E.g. one opinion is that the feet of women are 'awrah' (to be covered) unless thick socks are worn, however what exactly 'thick socks' are is to be decided by the culture of the person.
Gentleness and kindness were never a part of anything except that it made it beautiful, and harshness was never a part of anything except that it made it ugly.
Through cheating, stealing, and lying, one may get required results but finally one becomes
British people know hwo to queue. More Muslims should follow this practice, it doesn't mean they'd be 'immitating the kafirun'.
Don't just do something! Stand there.
Is that in reference to the whole It's Ok To Be Western thing?
What does it take to be "imitating the kafirun"
Where's the line drawn?
#Before you look at the thorns of the rose , look at it's beauty. Before you complain about the heat of the sun , enjoy it's light. Before you complain about the blackness of the night, think of it's peace and quiet... #
When the action is unislamic?
When someone seeing you do the act can not say that you're muslim?
"For too long, we have been a passively tolerant society, saying to our citizens 'as long as you obey the law, we will leave you alone'" - David Cameron, UK Prime Minister. 13 May 2015.
It's what Angry Muslims (TM) say about anything they don't understand/like.
I think it comes from a hadith... but its in reference to worship, not anything else.
Don't just do something! Stand there.
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