so theres a little thing in my life, that ive blown out of proportion and its really beed bad.

then someone said something abt writing a poem abt it.

i frown and thought:

a poem? i wouldnt waste time writing a poem about THAT?! poem requires energy and focus and attention and ENERGY and thinking about the rhyming and the way you express your ideas and the idea order and all those other things I associate with poem writing.

i just thought, i'm not wasting my time on THAT for THIS!

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then i remembered texting a friend about what to do with destructive energy. i dont know if you've ever had a moment where you just want to destroy something.

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i linked my restlessness abt that little thing and the "destructive energy". its one and the same to me. and i thought, i have no idea what to do with that restlessness and how to spend it and poem writing requires energy and effort. maybe they'll pair up just fine on this occasion.

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i know ultimately prayer will ease that restlessness. but the above was a great revelation. something i'd never have thought of. something better to do then stay up until late feeling crazy.

and no there isnt a poem or a song at the end of this blog. i spent the rest of the night doing nothing, then i thought abt death, then alarms started to go off when i wanted to finally sleep.